Friday, February 22, 2013

The Bigger the Better, the Tighter the Sweater...

I have my bra stuffed today. Although that's nothing new. I'm the owner of many bombshell bras, which contain way more padding than underwire.

But today's padding is different.

It's full of rice. 

No, really.

There's actually a technical name for filling thigh-highs with a measured amount of uncooked carbohydrates, tying and cutting the ends, then stuffing into one's bra: rice sizers. They're used to (unscientifically) determine how a certain size breast implant will look on a certain body.


Because friends, after 16 years of contemplating a boob job, I'm finally getting one.

My first consultation was when I was 18, and despite desperately wanting bigger boobs, I opted instead to pay off credit card debit.

My second was when I was 26, and despite desperately wanting bigger boobs, I decided it'd probably be better to wait until after I started a family.

My third was last week, because here I am: 34, credit card's paid off, kids are had, and I'm still desperately wanting bigger boobs.

 I'm nervous, definitely, but excited and confident in my decision and ready.

So ready.

I've been waiting (praying) for boobs since I've been 12. I've logged countless hours as a teenage girl, sitting in my room doing the "I must, I must, I must increase my bust" exercise. Which doesn't work. I'm looking at you, Judy Blume.

At least they're perky!, I'd say in my boob's defense. I can't even say that anymore. A pregnancy, followed by eight months of nursing, then another pregnancy, followed by ten months of nursing has taken its toll.  My boobs are most certainly not perky anymore.

 And working out? Only increases my desire. The flatter my stomach gets, the flatter my chest gets.

My lingerie drawer is filled with water bras and wonder bras and push up bras and even those chicken cutlets. You know what I'm talking about.

So I'm finally doing something about it. No more talking (thinking, wishing, dreaming) about how much I'd love a boob job. No more being a baby about the pain or feeling guilty about the expense.

I want to feel 100% confident in my skin.

I'd love any and all advice from anyone who's had - or has even contemplated - one.
xo

75 comments:

  1. Girl, I am so proud of you for admitting to everyone about it. I'm getting one too, this year. And after contemplating it since I was 16 and being scared people would label me as fake, I finally don't give a shit anymore. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin and you deserve that feeling too. I say good luck to you and let me know how everything goes! :)

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    1. Haters are gonna hate regardless. So really, eff 'em. We're doing this for us, so anyone elses opinions but our own are irrelevant :)

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  2. ahhhh the want for boobs. I'm right there with you girl! but my husband says no no no. gaaaaay.

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    1. My husband is the exact opposite: he has the date circled on the calendar in eager anticipation ;)

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  3. Good for you! I could never get rid of my lower belly pooch (even when I was super thin) so I did lipo. Love it! And my friend got boobs at the same time. She loves them. Go for it!

    And thanks for your comment on my blog. I hope your breakfast was delish!

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    1. I think the pain is my biggest fear, so I feel even more relieved when I hear about people undergoing similar procedures and having fantastic results. Thanks for that!

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  4. I say go for it! I've been a small A cup since forever and have always wanted a boob job. I don't have kids yet and have been advised to wait until after I do which is advice that I'm going to follow. But I think u should definitely do it.. It would be nice to feel "womanly" right?

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  5. Totally go for it!
    After having 3 kids myself within a four and a half year span and nursing each - I have been praying as well to get some new 'girls' seeing what I had deflated, & went south :\ But this year it's either replace my hubby's dying car, or boobs. [-insert disappointed angry face-]
    Would love to hear about your experience after getting them! :)

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    1. I will definitely be posting how things go. And damn car! Why you gotta break right now???

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  6. No judgement here! I'd get lipo if I could afford it! Boobs are great anyway. Best part of a womans body in my womanly opinion :)

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  7. I am totally in the same boat, I just don't have the funds right now. I know all about which brand of bras to buy that have the best padding to make the girls look their best. Mine are still decently perky, but not like they used to be before I had my son. Plus, now that I am working out.. they are getting smaller which is NOT okay! I would love it if you let me know how it goes!!

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  8. Hey! I say do what makes YOU happy. When I lose all of my weight and am done having babies (which after having 3 I'm pretty freaking sure I am there NOW)I will be having a tummy tuck and a boob job as well! My boob job will be a little different though. I'm getting mine cut down and brought back up! haha! I was a C before I started gaining weight. After I had my third, Lyndi, I was at an I. Don't even ask. It's disturbing. So these babies? Are SO gone! haha! Good luck!

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    1. Good luck to you as well! And girl, I didn't even know there was an I.

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  9. I love that you stuff your bra with rice. This post is life changing.

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    1. I wonder what many amazing words of wisdom the bachelor would have to say about rice sizers? ;) Which makes me wonder how many bachelorette boobies are real?

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  10. You're too funny! That's a really funny idea to stuff it with rice. I will offer you one bit of advice, be careful with the size you choose. I am a natural DD and I can't even begin to explain that complications it does to my back! Especially with you being so tiny weight wise! But other than making a smart size choice I say more power to you! Everyone should do whatever it takes for them to be comfortable in their own skin!

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    1. Thank you for your advice! I was an A, went to a D with both kids, which have settled into a sad B. I'm getting 265cc, which are going to give me a full B/small C.

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  11. go for it! would you like to follow each other? let me know!

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  12. I also want boob job. I'd say do it. You deserve it.
    Eric said I can't get a boob job until we have another kid. So I won't be getting one.

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  13. You go Glenn Coco!! If you have something you want fixed & it's doable I say go for it! xx

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  14. love this post! Great idea stuffing it with rice to see. I definitely hear ya about pregnancy and breast feeding, poor boobs. Haha

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    1. I've been browsing boob job forums and started to doubt my original size. I'm getting 265 cc, while the majority of girls on this forum are getting 400-500 cc. Ummm.... My doc suggested the rice sizers and I'm so happy he did; I would have DIED with boobs those big.

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  15. I saw that they do that on Jerseylicious, I thought it was just for the cameras - guess not.:) Go get 'em, honey, it think you've waited long enough!;)

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    1. You're kidding?? I'll have to youtube to see if I can find that episode. I felt completely crazy with them in my sweater.

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  16. Oh my!. For a long time, and especially lately since my weight loss, I've wanted a boob job. There are zero advantages to being the big girl if you can't at least have boobs (any boobs, please?). Since my daughter, nursing, and weight loss I now have pancake boobs. I tell everyone (probably people who don't care anymore) that after I reach goal I WILL be getting them done.
    16 years is a LONG time to want something. You have waited long enough. Your obviously sure that this is what you want and that it's the right time. I'd say go for it!

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    1. Yup, pancakes boobs are exactly what I have so I feel ya 100%. Thanks for your sweet words xo

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  17. I LOVE this post! I've wanted to get mine done since I was 15. I did the whole baby, nursing thing and I can still say 'at least they're perky!', but I'd love to feel....idk womanly? I'm contemplating them as a 'the divorce is final' present to myself!

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    1. In my humble opinion, a boob job would be an amazing divorce present! xo

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  18. You won't regret it. I got mine done a while back. Love them. My only regret is not doing it sooner.

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  19. I love boobs but they shouldn't be too big.

    How about following each other? Let me know on my blog!

    /Avy

    http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com

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    1. I agree. Despite my husband's attempt to get me to consider Ds and biggers, I'm going with a full B/small C.

      And following you :)
      xo

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  20. I love the honesty of this post and I look forward to reading about your journey through this :)
    newly following

    xo
    lauren

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  21. I think you would look amazing with whatever you decided to do, and if you want boobs, get dem tittays, lady! I plan to get mine reduced as soon as birthing and nursing is over.

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  22. AMAZING!!! I am decidedly pro anything that makes you feel better about yourself. It's your body to do as you please. My advice is any surgeon you meet with ask to see their scar book not just before and after pics. This will let you know how well the sew which is majorly important for you because that's what you're left with.

    This is very exciting! I think you will be so pleased. It's one thing off the list to quit obsessing about and start embracing. Good for you!!

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    1. I'm opting for the "belly button" surgery. Have you heard of this method? There's a small incision just under the belly button and the implants are placed that way. There's less trauma to the body, less recovery time, and no obvious scars.

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  23. I really love the comment above! Anything that you want to do that is going to help you, go for it!!

    I'm about to start a controversial diet, which I wont be updating about because I honestly don't feel like hearing 3459345893745 rude comments, but I'm doing it for me. It's going to help ME and that's all that matters!

    If it makes you feel any better, I have the exact opposite problem. I've always been "busty" which I didn't mind until I had and nursed my son. Now they're huge, saggy bags of fat that are completely unattractive.

    How's that for TMI? :P

    Best of luck to you doll! I hope you choose to do this for yourself if you really want it! xo

    ♥ Ashley

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    1. Thanks Ash! Seriously, breastfeeding - for all of its wonders - sure does a number of the mama's body. We should get a breastfeeders discount for any future boob-related surgeries ;)

      And good luck on your diet! I'll be silently supporting you xo

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  24. Those rice thingies look funny. I'm like imagining that you're a shaking sambaball when walking around. But seriously now, I love that you're doing this for yourself. I hope everything goes well and you're going to be superhappy!! xo

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  25. I say go for it! you've had so much time to think about it, and after some time you still want it! I'm sure in that time you've done all your research and are ready for it.
    btw- I love the site & am excited to follow along with you :)

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  26. Wow, I found your blog through heather's life, love, pinterest blog.

    :C I'm 21 and I've been waiting for my boobs to grow for a while too... they never did. I have been excited to have a kid one day, because I want bigger boobs (I'm like a small B cup... 32 or 34 b depending on the design) But I'm only like a little less than 100 pounds, so I suppose they look ok for my body size. Reading these posts about girls who didnt get bigger boobs after being preggo makes me super sad, LOL. I hate to sound naive... but I really really am. My mom got big boobs after she had me, and she was even flatter than me when she was my age! So I'm hoping that happens. I dont really understand how this works, aha~

    Its so cool to see someone going for this though... I am really curious to know your current size? I want to get implants too... but poor college student... thats really not ever happening. And my boyfriend basically says "No, never" >:C sad!

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    1. I'm 5'2" and 115lbs. There is hope because I got such big boobs throughout my pregnancies (like Ds! They were insane!), and they lasted for for about a year after but sadly mine went away. They took my As to Bs though, albeit saggy ones. I'm getting 265ccs, which will give me full Bs, maybe a small C depending on the bra.

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  27. Loved this post!
    One day.... that's what I always say too. luckily my husband is not against it haha

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  28. Oh wow!!!! Love it!! Can't wait! Excited for you!

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  29. Just found your blog. Wow, I love your honesty! As a small B, I've struggled with my breast size. I tell myself the same thing, "At least they're perky!" I haven't had children yet, so who knows, maybe I'll follow suit with you after I do. Following you now. :)

    Alex[andra]
    letlifebelikemusic.blogspot.ca

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  30. So basically, you're on your way to being a perfect specimen! Investing in yourself will always pay off! Love you and can't wait to see how they look!

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  31. I was the girl who got breast implants at age 18 (right after graduating high school) and since I didn't have any credit card debt I was extremely happy with my decision. I went into it knowing I was going to receive a lot of criticism from family and friends (mainly for being so young) but like you I had known that I wanted it since I was 12 years old and I knew I wasn't trying to look like a crazy playboy bunny or anything and in the end I was really happy with the results. It's only been 3 years but I haven't regretted my decision once. I feel so much more confident in my appearance (before I felt like I had a really boyish figure) and even though my boobs are still smaller than half of my friends I'm okay with that because I didn't go into this procedure as some sort of competition trying to have the biggest boobs out there (oh hey Heidi Montag) but to have the boobs I always wanted (which happen to be a small C). Good luck and I hope you are as happy as I am!

    xxoo
    Jordyn

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  32. yes!!! You will love your new boobies! I sure do love mine ;)

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  33. Good for you!!! I have the opposite issue, DDD, but I LOVE having boobs and think every girl should have the, flaunt them and love them!!!

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  34. I've gone for consultations twice and I'm holding out until the babies are born too! Congrats on new tatas

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  35. Love yourself, all of yourself even if it means buying some of the pieces ;) if I ever had the B. A. Double L's to write a post on why I finally bought my "pieces" it be word for word what you've described! Go for it, you'll love them!!

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  36. Good for you! I helped a friend through her first two days after surgery just a month and a half ago. Now she is feeling great and is way more happy with the way she looks.

    http://trinemarie.com/

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  37. I literally just wrote a post today about how the figure I've been given has led people to ask me whether I was a boy or a girl several times over the years. :P Oh well--I'd never do this, primarily because I'm terrified of doctors. But if you have a more reasonable attitude towards the medical profession like most of the world--why not?

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  38. Got mine done last summer and I haven't regretted it for one second. I was like you, I had my babies and I was just ready. It was so much easier then I expected!!

    Some things that really helped me....I was consistent with the pain medication for the first 3 days. After that I didn't even need anything except at night to sleep. I have a pretty low pain tolerance and I dare say this was easy! I had a lot of help set up with my kids, and lots of ice packs. I got some round gel ice packs like that kids use and kept a set in the freezer and a set in my bra for a good 2-3 weeks. It just felt better, and I had very little swelling I think due to that.

    Don't push yourself. You will start feeling better soon but take it easy! It is a pretty big surgery and it's not worth hurting yourself. I could tell when I was overdoing it though, so listen to your body. I am so happy for you, you will love them!

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